My sunshine ♥

:(

2011-05-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

Isi'nt is so obvious that he does'nt even care about me?
1. Not replying my texts but reply others
2. Not picking up my calls but pick up others
3. Hung up my phone calls

Damn , i miss him :'(

Sad.

2011-05-18T09:50:00.000-07:00

I'm sad.
Very sad.
I've been trying hard to be nice to you.
I talked nicely to you online.
But you kept on scolding me and to always expect the worse.
:(
I don't treat you like a toy.
Since when did i treated you like one?
I'm sorry if you think i'm crappin' .
I don't even care about you?
Nah, i cared about you a lot.
Cuz, i love you okay.
Gosh , i feel so sad.
I've never been wanting us to end.
And i'm not gonna leave you alone okay?
Hey, thanks for giving me the chance to be back to you.
I really appreciate it lots.

Alrights, going to bed now .

Love,
lilShawty♥

SUCKS.

2011-05-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

Damn . I hate this feelings !
Why must you leave me just like that ?
It's terrible .
Superbly terrible .
Great .
For another girl ?
Yeah i know .
Just go la .
Go on .
SHE loves you .
& you love her .
I ain't stupid .
I knew it long long time ago .
No wonder you know so much about her .
No wonder you know know where she go and what she is doing .
It's like as if you know everything about her .
Or how bout your 1st ex ? your 1st love ?
the DAYANG SOFEA?
Ohh, that ''ADORABLE'' girl (cute but ugly).
Okay , good .
Now , you're free .
You can do whatever you want .
Go and flirt .
I don't care already .

SUcks . Totally SUCKS .
Why can't i just move on so easily just like how you did ?
I kept thinking bout you every single day whenever i woke up .
I just could'nt believe that you'd actually left me .
I could'nt believe that you took me for granted and for fun .
I'm not a toy okay !
I have pride .
Damn bitch !

I know i ain't perfect .
I sucks .
My attitude sucks .
I can't control my spending and all .
Hey! excuse me , who the FUCK are you to me ?
It's my money, my life, my PROBLEM .
Damn asshole .
Perangai like CHEEBYE .
Go and Die la !
What the fuck ?
Excuse me , You think your attitide is good !?
You asked me help you to get a job .
Then , i helped you .
But now what ?
Don't want to work anymore ?
People give you a job , you have to be thankful .
Not to always don't turn up for work .
If you're not able to come on a particular day , or whatsoever ..
Do inform your boss .
Like DUH!?
You're wasting my energy .
I feel that you're not grateful to me .

With lots of hates,
lilShawty

♥♥♥♥

2011-05-02T05:12:00.000-07:00

Baby , you're so sweet .
Thanks for everything .
Thanks for being there for me .
I really love you a lot .
Even though we can't be together .
I mean , take it slow and NO rush .
It's not the right time for us to be together .
Let our feelings grow stronger .
Let it last .
Cause i know , that if we're together now , we MAY not last .
I wanna be with you forever .

I'm real sorry if i never turn up for work yesterday.
I was in Malaysia .
I'm full of guilt cause i felt that i've left you alone
and didn't have a chance to company you .
Seriously , i felt SO DAMN HAPPY ! verry HAPPY ! ,
when i finally can access the internet yesterday night .
I kept thinking of you even though i'm in Malaysia .
I've been waiting for the time that i can access the net
so that i'll be able to contact you ..
OMG! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

Baby , this is real cute . Thanks . (:
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Sorry.

2011-04-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

Why must you go to her?
Why must you belong to someone else?
Now , you're angry with me caause i never take good care of myself today .
Yes , and i'm sorry .
I was just tempting to eat that fruit .
It was my favourite afterall .
Okay , let me leave you alone for now .
Let you cool down by yourself .
I can't do much .
I've got nothing else to say .
Thanks for that song .
It's nice .
I love you .

:D

2011-04-23T07:40:00.001-07:00

I've been wanting to start anew with you .
I've been wanting to make peace with you .
Let's us remove those negative thoughts about each other .
What do you think ?
Cause i know that i wanna change to the better .
Starting on Monday . (:

Thanks A LOT !

2011-04-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

I lied to you ?
What did i lie to you in the first place ?
What isit about ?
Please don't anyhow accuse .
You asked me to change my DP .
Yes , i did change it early in the morning before i went off to work .
I can't change it the night before cuz my parents are not at home .
They pull out the net and i don't have any chance to go online .
I even deleted what Gilbert commented on my photo .
I wanted to say thanks to you .
But, i guess its no use .
You don't even care about me .
I knew it from the start .
That is why i'm afraid to fall in love .
I know that you're gonna leave me one day .
Just because i lied to you lots of times .
Which i think it's lame .

Why can't you stop accusing me !?
Why can't you just find out the truth first before saying something ?!
My tears is dripping non-stop while i'm blogging right now .
It's alrights .
My body is weak and achey .
Saw throat is really terrible .
Cough blood ?
Whats that suppose to mean ?
I guess it's time for god to take away my life .
I don't wanna live anymore .
The person that i care most doesn't care about me anymore .
Why should i live ?

I know that you're in love with someone else .
I knew it from the start .
You took me as a rebound .
What a GREAT liar .
THANKS !

I thought you were different .
Different than those guys i've met .
But yet , you're the same as them .
ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME !
I studied them .
Those patterns of theirs were all the SAME .
Treating the girl like one PROSTITUDE .
Took what they want from them
and after all those sweetness that they got ,
they left them .

ALL those guys who broke off with me,
the reason is because they have NO more FEELINGS towards me .
It's all gone . And faded .
ALL GUYS ARE BULLSHITS !
they're GOOD in twisting stories .
By not saying things straight-forward .

I know you hate me NOW.
I know you doesn't have feelings towards me from the start .
I know you took me as a rebound .
I know you want me to get out of your life cuz you find me irritating and
furthermore, you're in LOVE with someone else .
I know i'm nothing to you .
I know i'm not important to you .
I know i SUCK!
i know i'm too Dirty for you .
i know i'm TOO STUPID for you cuz i'm from NA ,
and i got bad results and i went to RP .
and i got no future .
I know my attitude is so BAD for you .
Yeah, that girl that you wanted to be with is way more CLEVERER & SMART !
and obtain good results . and pretty , hot , tall , sexy , responsible , caring , clean , romantic ,
soft-hearted , great attitude ,
Hell yeah , your perfect woman to be with .
I know i'm UGLY , SHORT , DISGUSTING
And i have a very BAD HEART ! BAD TASTE !

Yeaps , i know i'm ain't perfect .
I SUCK !
I'm the suckiest girl ever !
No one wants to last with me .
cuz i just SUCK !
i know , i SUcK !
i know where i stand .
I'm a LOW CLASS woman .

Damn sick .
Feel like not coming to school on MONDAY .
cuz i gonna lost my voice .
like SOON !

Okay , you don't even care .
It's alrights .
I'm always alone .
I'm just a loner ,
I'm a nobody .

And now , i've lost you .
i've lost a bestie .
A person who i trust most .
A person who i need .
A person who is always there to correct my mistakes .
A person who i always complains to .

Thanks A LOT .

With lots of love,
lilShawty .

:(

2011-04-22T16:00:00.000-07:00

I can't understand you .
I just can't understand you .
Which is which ?
Which is the truth ?
You said you were all mine .
& now , you're gonna belong to someone else ?

A cold night

2011-04-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

Sitting in my room , alone .
Shivering in darkness .
It's cold !!

I'm waiting for him to online .
But, it seems that he is not goin to online tonight .
Yeah, time for him go get a good rest .
He's sick . Having fever .
How i wish i'm right next to him right now .
How i wish I could hug him tight .
Haiz , Goodnight baby.
Take care and get well soon .
I love you .

Swollen

2011-04-20T20:24:00.000-07:00

Having 2 hours break right now.
So sleepy . Tired eyes . Eyes super swollen . GRRrrr .
Yesterday cry until so terrible .

I miss you baby !
SO MUCH !
OMG !
but sad :(
Your love towards me is fading .
But my love towards you are gettin' much thicker .
Whatever is it , i'll try my very best to win your heart .
Haiz , why isit you think so low of me ? :(
i may look like as if i'm flirting .
But , truely inside me .. I'm not & i don't really care much about guys in RP .
You're the best .
You're nice .
You're always there for me .
Even though you're always very sarcastic towards me .
You're not only a bestie to me .
I treat you more than that .
But , it's up to you if you don't wanna be with me .
I don't wanna force you .
Cuz , i see no point in forcing . & if we were to be together ,
I want you to accept me as for who i am and accept me with open arms .
Speak thru your heart .
Please don't ever accept me cuz you pity me .
It'll be very hurtful .

I love you .

Damn !

2011-04-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

GREAT!
i did'nt do anything wrong .
& he said that to me !?
OMFG !
Pain pain pain .
I'm always hurt .
ALWAYS!
but today, it is the WORST day ever!!

Actually, i should let that TAXI hit me when i cross the road just now.
But why?
WHY I QUICKLY RAN OFF !!!??
I'm pissed!

There goes my life .
I guess it's worth it .

Tired

2011-04-19T08:09:00.000-07:00

I miss being with you seriously :(
I love you .
& Now , i'm waiting for you to online .
I called and you did'nt pick up :(
How sad .

My chest pain .
Right now .
But its alrights .
Soon , the pain will go away.

Alright , shall head to bed now .
Goodnight Moon .

Love,
MarielilShawty